| Yes. It is alright to set our bar a little higher and attempt to achieve that which we previously thought impossible...the 100% On Plan Week.
Sometimes I think we let ourselves off too easily, especially with the gobs of support and encouragement we tend to receive on this site. And I'm not knockin' that, by the way.
But at what point to we look at ourselves and just say "enough's enough....playtime is over?"
I know in the past I have had to confront that attitude in myself more times than I can count (the lenient attitude), and had to actually become a little harder on myself, in a GOOD way. Now I expect MORE out of myself, not less. Because I have goals and I WILL achieve them...if only I'll let me.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | So another Monday comes and I'm down 2 lbs. I lose slow and steady on the Medifast Program and I am happy with that. It still results in 9 lbs/month, and that REALLY adds up!
I have begun to exercise. A short walk/jog for 30 mins on Tues, Thurs, Fri mornings, and an 1 hour (gentle-mostly stretching, some poses) Yoga class Mon, Wed, and Sat.
I also toodle around the neighborhood on my bicycle sometimes, and just feel great. I used to feel self-conscious on a bicycle, like people were driving by me thinking "Oh look, a fat lady on a bicycle...." I don't care anymore. I do it because I love it.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | I've been there. That morning you wake up after the day that you ate off program. You feel guilty. You feel like a failure. You feel like "what's the point if trying if I'm just going to be back in this place every weekend?"
Yes. The week-day dieter.
And yes, I've been there. You do so well during the week. Easy peazey lemon squeezey. Structure. Activities. Routine. Not a problem.
Then the weekend comes. Sleeping in. You've missed a MF meal already and look, the family is having some together time which includes a brunch at a fancy place that it takes FOREVER to get in to. And it costs $20 per plate, so are you REALLY just going to have 3 poached eggs and some celery? REALLY?
Then the baseball/football/basketball game is on and everyone relies on YOU to host it at your house with all the treats the hosts are supposed to provide for these things. The smells are overwhelming, and plus since you DID have that Belgian Waffle yesterday you also happen to be out of ketosis today and feel STARVING so what's the point in putting off the inevitable bites licks and tastes that you know you will probably end up having while cleaning everything up afterwards. Why not enjoy them WITH everyone instead of sneaking off into the kitchen when no one is looking...well, besides the fact that you've already HAD some BLT's while you were preparing the snacks BEFORE hand. But you were pretty good at denying that at the time.
So hey, what's another failed weekend? So what if you lose 4 lbs/month instead of 12?
And this is how it goes for some. And as I said, I have been there so I am not casting stones.
Here's the thing. If we become content with losing 4 lbs/month and eating what we want on the weekends, eventually we will be content with "well at least I'm not gaining" because that is the next step. And the next step after that is "well my jeans still fit"....until they don't.
Then we find that it has been 7 weeks since our last Medifast order...and we still have food left....and we wonder how we can justify another order if we really aren't doing it...so we don't.
A year later we sadly pull out our size 26 jeans and...
They fit again.
So listen to my words of warning. PLEASE listen to them. I am not perfect. I am far from perfect. But I have BEEN there. I have been on that slippery slope before, and when you are ON that slope sometimes it is just easier to "accept" what you feel is the "inevitable", stop grasping at shrubs and tree limbs on the way down, and just turn around and "enjoy" the ride. But it is deadly too.
Did you know that obesity causes a higher inflammatory response in our bodies by default? And that this inflammatory response is responsible for putting us at a higher risk of just about every disease there is out there? Cancers, heart disease, arthritis, stroke, you name it, and obese individuals have much higher incidences of these diseases.
So it does matter what we do on the weekend. It does matter. And if you are one of those who woke up this morning feeling guilty, feeling like it's no use, feeling like perhaps this isn't the plan for you because you just can't seem to stick to it for those two days at the end of each week, I am here to tell you to MAKE YOUR NEXT MEAL A MEDIFAST ONE. It is NEVER too late to become the person you MIGHT have been. The person you CAN be. The person you WILL be. No matter how many times you have to snap yourself back into the game, DO IT. It is so worth it.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | I live in a great little neighborhood in Gilbert which has quite a few "cottage industry" businesses in the homes. One such business is a Christian Yoga Studio. I'm so excited to be going to my first Yoga Class this morning. Nervous also. Never would have DREAMPT of doing this 93 pounds ago.
Also looking forward to seeing exactly what is meant by the term "Christian Yoga....."
=)
| | "Therefore let us also, seeing we are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us - Heb 12:1."
So I know that this verse is talking about heavenly witnesses, but I also interpret it in the here and now, there here being our Medifast friends, our acquaintances at work, our friends, our families. The lady at the check-out at Costco. Our pharmacist. Anyone who is watching with interest our progress.
I am doing this program for myself, true, but there will be those who are impacted positively by MY journey. And I am laying aside every "weight" and I am running this course with "patience" this race that I have chosen to run. This course that I have chosen to embark upon.
I chose this.
Sometimes just remembering that I chose this helps me through the times where the struggle just seems so overwhelming. This program was not imposed upon me. I wanted this. I will happily adhere to the tenets of the program, because the program works.
I am finished being the bratty rebellious teenager who stomps her foot and will HAVE what she WANTS right NOW. The one who resents rules and "restrictions". The one who wants to be carefree and irresponsible. No.
It's time for me to put my big-girl panties on and grow up. The great thing is that my big-girl panties aren't so big anymore. =)
I love Medifast.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | What does it take to be a guaranteed success on the program? I know there are many people, myself included, who enter into Medifast with a bit of trepidation. Thoughts like "Can I really do this? Will it really work for me?" always accompany the start of any significant life change.
But I am here to tell you that YES. You CAN really do it. YES. It WILL really work for you. I can guarantee it if you've got only TWO things that you remember to do:
1) Keep your commitment to the plan
2) Know that it will take a little time
These are the only two variables that determine raving success over the long-term, and someone who loses heart and motivation after a few weeks and drops off the plan entirely.
I am not saying that everyone who is not fully committed to doing the plan will see NO success. Some, if not many, will see a degree of success, and some, if not many, may reach their goal. And to that I say it is an individual journey and you gotta do what works for you.
However, comma, if you want a GUARANTEE that you WILL reach your goal I cannot give it to you unless you ARE committed to following the plan as written.
And for me, there is peace in knowing that I WILL arrive, that it is SIMPLY a matter of time. It allows me to continue to have the faith necessary for ME not to become disheartened when I'm on a plateau, because I KNOW I'm doing everything by the book and that the weight will continue to come off, maybe just this week I'm losing inches instead of pounds.
Here's the deal. I started at 268, my highest weight EVER. I am now at 174.
I started at a size 26W stretch jeans (and they weren't kidding on the "stretch".....)
I now range between 8-12 depending on the brand.
I started having just purchased a CANE at a rest-stop in California on a road-trip because my knees were hurting that much. I was 40 years old. That CANE is in my closet as a memento.
I started being winded walking out to the car. I can now run a mile without stopping.
I started 98 pounds into "Obese"....(Obese for me started at 170 and I weighed 268) and now I have 5 pounds to lose before I'm "just" overweight.
I started in despair, but with hope on the horizon. That despair is but a memory, and my default mental state now is hope.
The only difference between me and those of you just starting out is a little bit of time. If you have the commitment to follow the program, take it 1 day at a time and in what will seem like no time at all (in hindsight LOL) you will be saying that you are almost "just" overweight!
And we'll all do the happy dance for you!
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | I thought I'd take my measurements today, since I have started to exercise this week and wanted to get all my stats including my % body fat for comparison as I continue on my journey.
My Chest/Waist/Hips measurement have gone from:
55/52/61
to:
42/37/49
I've lost 13 inches off my chest, 15 inches off my waist, and 12 inches off my hips (widest part, more like my bum!), in less than a year. Yay Medifast! Yay me!
Measurements don't lie, neither does clothing because clothing is tied to measurements, and I am wearing (out of the house now!) size 8 Levi's. (Down from a solid size 26W)
My percent body fat has gone from 51% to 39%. BMI from over 47 to 31. Yay Medifast! Yay me!
Yay Medifast! Yay me!
| | Our ultimate success on this program really only comes down to our next choice. What will it be?
Will we DO the Medifast plan as written? Will we not? What is the next thing we are putting in our mouths? Is it on plan? Is it planned and scheduled? Or is it impulsive and instantly gratifying, and not REALLY on plan but maybe if we cut our carbs for the remainder of the day.....
I need to remember WHAT I am feeding with everything I put in my mouth.
Am I feeding my long-term goals and dreams for my weight loss and optimal health? Or am I feeding my inner-brat? That inner-brat who would happily have me 6-feet underground in a year if it could? Yes, the inner-brat of self-destruction. Because that is where I'm headed if I turn this boat around and head to the destination I WAS heading to before recommitting to Medifast.
Because every little tiny thing we let pass through our lips is either taking us CLOSER to our goals of Optimal Health, or FARTHER from them.
"Oh but Stacy, why do your blogs always sound like it is a matter of life and death?" Because it is.
Decision time. Make your next decision count.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | My Aunt was admitted into the ER on Saturday night after battling bronchitis for a few weeks, and has now been diagnosed with Sepsis.
I am praying for her. I am deeply saddened that she is now battling for her life in the ICU, and my sadness is increased knowing that Obesity increases morbidity statistics in Sepsis patients. I am doubly saddened by the fact that she was going to sign up for Medifast in April. Then something came up. Then something else came up. Then finally something came up. Then she and her husband were REALLY going to do it this time....and I waiting for the call from her letting me know that she wanted to, in fact, order Medifast.
Instead I got an e-mail from my Uncle that she is quite possibly dying in a hospital in California. And I know that her III Obesity puts her at greater risk of mortality.
And I am very saddened. About all of it. How hard do you push someone? How many times do you e-mail them and remind them they "said" they were going to start? I sent 3 or 4 such e-mails to encourage her along in the last 2 months. Sometimes it's just a little too late.
Obesity increases the overall inflammatory response in all individuals who ARE obese. This puts them at higher risk of ultimately dying from the complications of a simple cold. Which turns into bronchitis. Which turns into Sepsis.
Yes, I am saddened. Please say a prayer for Vicki.
| | I've determined already on my journey that I am going to enjoy it.
I'm done "grinning and bearing it" as far as my weight loss is concerned. I am EMBRACING my limitations where food is concerned, I am REJOICING in the fact that every day I stay On Plan this is working for me.
And it will work for every one of you.
Let's make this an On Plan day, because you CAN do this, but only YOU can do this!
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
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You Really Have to be a Visionary.....To do Medifast at all. I guarantee every person who orders this program on faith and receives it in the mail and STARTS, has a visionary, pioneering, and adventurous heart.
It's like the promise of a "new land". It's like what propelled the pilgrims across the ocean so many years ago.
No one said it would be easy. And they didn't care.
We are really made of the same stuff, aren't we? We've been imprisoned and chained up in these obese and overweight bodies of ours for so long...and yet...the longing....
We signed on for the journey, with anticipation, and a bit of dread at what would lie ahead in the unknown. Days and nights, toil and sometimes hunger, going without, all of it brings that "new" us closer day by day. Sometimes we get seasick. Some days we just don't feel it. Some days we despair. But our boat is moving, because we have set our course. And we are adventurers.
The salty sea spray and the ocean breeze that promised freedom, and better horizons, caught our imagination one day...we saw ourselves on the distant shore, and it seemed like an apparition at first, seen faintly through the mist.
Look! Do you see that? There? Through the mist...the sun is rising...I see it. I see me. I see a shining, fit and slender version of me who is free from her chains of bondage. She is smiling. She is dancing. She is me. And look, she's wearing the size 2P Ann Taylor Loft black trousers I bought on sale today knowing, KNOWING, I will be there soon.
Land ho everyone. Let's do this thing.
| "If people knew how hard I had to work to gain my mastery, it would not seem so wonderful at all." - Michelangelo
It isn't easy. But it IS worth it. How hard are we working to create our life's masterpiece, to master our own health?
| | I am training my brain towards adherence.
What does that mean? Well, firstly, the human brain is a servile instrument. An example of a servile system is a missile with a guidance system that is "servile". This means it will lock on a target, and even if the target moves, the missile will follow the target, focusing on it, moving with it, and eventually hit it's mark.
Our brains do the same thing. We WILL hit what we choose to focus on. If I am craving something, and begin to focus on that object, my brain will not REST until I have some resolution on the matter. The resolution can be either caving in and having the THING I am focusing on, or it can be removing the THING from my mind.
When I am tempted, I choose the latter. But I will go so far as to say that I am working on making sure I don't even entertain those temptations at ALL. How? I focus on my goals. Since my brain will lock on and target whatever I focus on with laser like precision, I choose my target to be my goal of optimal health.
Compliance. Adherence. These, on the surface, can sound like robotic-like "drank the Kool-Aid" words. But I will say it is as wise to stick to the Quick Start Guide as closely as possible as it is to stick to a road map when you are in unfamiliar territory and headed to a destination. Or a treasure map when you are looking for treasure.
Medifast is the roadmap/treasuremap I have chosen to follow. My goal is optimal health. Why would I want to delay reaching my destination by even a few days? So yes, I choose the straight and narrow.
Yes, I choose to focus on what I CAN have, and what I am ACHIEVING on my journey, not what I am "missing out" on. Because I'm not missing out on anything, unless I define happiness by what sugary snack I can or cannot consume.
I am re-engineering my paradigm in light of my goal of optimal health. That includes my eating program. And let me tell you, I can't WAIT to transition to maintenance at my goal because I will be able to eat ANY VEGGIE I WANT! =)
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Today I put my hair into a pony tail, grabbed my multi-color bag from Roatan, my flip-flops, and hopped on my bicycle. I pedaled a short distance to the Organic Farm we have in our neighborhood community (called Agritopia), and proceeded to pick 7 pounds of organic vegetables.
I came home with my bag full of cucumbers, zucchini, beets (for fam), red onions, serrano peppers, and 3 different varieties of tomatoes. I'm putting pictures of them on Mypage, but have included one as an attachment for the blog.
One year ago I was miserably morbidly obese. I had a BMI of 47 and was wearing size 26 jeans and NOT doing anything about it. One year ago I would spend my Saturday morning in bed or on the couch, because moving was difficult.
One year ago I wore sweat pants and mens XXL T-shirts.
What a difference a year makes. I am now into my size 10 and 12 jeans, and am actually able to wear the stylish size Medium tops I have in my closet. I can bicycle to a farm and pick my own vegetables for my family.
I am happy.
Today I am meeting with a few Medifast ladies at The Coffee Shop at 1:00 on Ray and Higley in Gilbert. I will take my bicycle there also. Oh, look at the time, I'd better get ready to go!
| | Need I say more? Oh, but you know I will! LOL!
Today is a "5 Brownie Day" day. And why not? I can, I want to, it is on plan, and I am enjoying it!
I started with a brownie for breakfast, just as I always do. Mid-morning came along, and I felt like eating a brownie. Had my 7 oz shrimp and 1.5 cups cooked mushrooms, and 1 tsp olive oil over top (other health fat was my 2 TBSP half and half this morning), and I've just had a brownie for my 3rd Medifast meal.
I think I'll have a brownie for my dinner and then again for my evening meal.
I love Medifast.
| | I have given myself permission to succeed.
In this journey to optimal health, the only person who has the power to keep my from my dream of having a healthy BMI and being a fit and healthy mom and wife and SELF is......you guessed it....ME.
And I have given myself the green light.
I have the tools, let's face it, Medifast makes that part easy.
I have the focus. Because I fix my gaze on my goal every morning and every evening.
I am focusing on what I want, and what I can achieve in this journey. I am NOT focusing on what I am missing and what I can't have.
This leaves me with an underlying feeling of hope and adventure instead of despair and deprivation. Which makes all the difference for me. Who wants to live like that?
So...I stay "On Plan" daily, which for me means as written in the Quick Start Guide, scheduling my meals every 2-3 hours, not exceeding 3 condiments, bypassing the optional snack unless I feel VERY hungry, and drinking half my weight in water. That's the secret of my success.
Adherence is not only "a" key, it is "the" key, and it is the difference in success and no-so-much-success on this plan.
And I will adhere REALLY, not SORTA, or MOSTLY.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | | | ....the Mentality of seeing myself as a large person, and as a more normal-weigh person.
It is mind-blowing, no doubt about that. To catch my reflection in a shopfront window when I'm not expecting it, to slip on the size 10's....and they are fitting with less and less muffin-top. Dare I try on the 8's?
Folks, I am vowing never to forget what it feels like to be morbidly obese. And I am very excited at what each new day brings.
A note of warning I posted on the discussion thread, do NOT forget to try on ALL your smaller clothes OFTEN. I pretty much missed the window for wearing ALL my Large tops because I went from an XL top to a Medium top in the last 2 weeks. Crazy.
| | Take me into the Beautiful, won't you take me back again
With a love unexplainable come fill up this dry land
Let it open our eyes to see the world we've never seen
Let it open our hearts up to feel You inside of us, here inside of me
Take me into the Beautiful where the rivers flow with a love that never ends
Oh I wanna go into the beautiful, la la la la la la la
Take me into the Beautiful where the faces glow with a light that never dims
Oh I wanna go into the Beautiful, come on and take me again
La la la la la la la la
Take me into the mystery gently lift me with Your grace
Make the chaos a chorus with itself come fill this place
Cover me with Your mercy come and cover me with love
Cover me so that all men see that it's You, not me, that it's You that I'm singing of
Take me into the Beautiful where the rivers flow with a love that never ends
Oh I wanna go into the Beautiful, la la la la la la
Take me into the Beautiful where the faces glow with a light that never dims
Oh I wanna go into the Beautiful, come on and take me again
Your love is brighter than diamonds when I'm with You
A love that always invites us to be with You
Your love is brighter than diamonds now I'm with You
Take me into the Beautiful where the rivers flow with a love that never ends
Oh I wanna go into the Beautiful, la la la la la la la
Take me into the Beautiful where the faces glow with a light that never dims
Oh I wanna go into the Beautiful, come on and take me again
La la la la la la la la la
Come on and take me again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhOVPBZhzn8&feature=related
| | Today I saw someone who had not seen me in 3-4 months. He works at a Tokyo Express in Scottsdale, and as I have been going to Tokyo Express for about 25 years now, that is saying quite a bit.
This manager, a sweet gentleman who I've seen there for the last 25 years (yes, since I was 16 yrs old) waited on my son and I today. As I was collecting my son's food, he looked at me and said "It is YOU! I didn't recognize you!"
We had a great talk about Medifast and my success on the program. I have lost 93 lbs, so I just tell people I've lost "close to 100 pounds" because saying "Ninety-Three" kinda sounds like I'm keeping a little too close of track. And I am, but they don't need to know that LOL
The cool thing about it is that he DID see me 3-4 months ago, it's not like he hasn't seen me since I started Medifast! But my body has significantly changed in the last 3 months, (about 30 lbs) which is the super-cool part. Before he just registered me as "large" and large was large so my gradual incremental shrinking did not make as MUCH of an impact on him as this last 3-4 months has. I truly believe that I am getting there.
It felt good. Starting last July 31st at 268 and a BMI of over 47 I knew what would get me here. Medifast, and my commitment to the plan. And I am doing it. Day by day.
We have now entered the "thrilling" part of the adventure. Strap in!!!!
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. How do you go from over 47 BMI to 31 BMI? One day at a time.
Yes, I am thrilled to say my BMI today is 31. Just last July 31st it was over 47. That put me in the morbidly morbidly obese category, at 268 lbs and 5 ' 3".
And my body knew it. Aches, pains, back trouble, trouble sleeping, fatigue, depression, you name it. I had no "apparent" health issues, besides the obesity that was killing me, but I was becoming insulin resistant, had a resting heart rate of OVER 90, and would come to find out I had the early symptoms of PAD (peripheral artery disease), which is in the realm of cardiovascular disease.
Medifast was the tool I used, it was the lifesaver ring that was thrown out from the boat of life. But I had to grab it. And grab it I did.
Now I have none of those health issues. I run, I ride my bike, I swim with my child at the community pool. I help others achieve their health goals and I am loving, LOVING life.
Now off to find my running shoes because I've got an appointment with the pavement!
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Being deliberate in our decisions is part of what makes Medifast work on an individual basis.
I do not adhere to the plan by accident. I don't mindlessly prepare all my meals and my lean and green and just so "happen" to find at the end of the day that I was On Plan.
My day is deliberate. I live with intentionality and purpose, and everything that goes into my mouth has to pass the test of "will this help me achieve my goals or delay my goals?"
How about you?
| | Today I am one more day closer to my goal. Today I will focus on ONLY today. One of these "today's" I will wake up at goal. It may be 6 months of "today's" or 5 months of "today's", perhaps even 7 months of "today's".
I don't know. But today I will focus on today.
| | I don't know about you, but I go crazy obsessing on things I'm fixated on. I have to be really careful about what I turn my attention to, or else my plans crumble and I'm left a little dazed and confused.
For example, I like red wine. However, I've determined that it will sit on the shelf until I am in maintenance because that is what I have committed to myself I will do. Most days I don't even glance at it. It sits as a happy reminder of the healthy lifestyle I will maintain once I hit my goal and transition.
But here is the danger. When I start thinking about red wine and imagining myself with a glass, my mind will begin to run with those thoughts. My inner-brat will sense an opening, a weakness if you will, and will attempt a mutiny.
So when I recognize that I am beginning to focus a little too much on those things I have chosen NOT to have while achieving my goals and dreams, I pull myself back, I take my thoughts captive, and I continue on my day. Insert whatever it is that you are feeling particularly deprived of these days.
The very fact that we feel "deprived" of it makes us want it more. I challenge you, and I challenge me, to turn that around and instead of feeling "deprived", realize that it is a choice we have made to abstain in order to reach OUR goals. The things WE want for ourselves, that we have decided are MORE important than the temporary and transient (and in some cases deadly because indulging is keeping us fat and unhealthy and prone to all sorts of diseases!) pleasures of eating "XXXXX".
Focusing on feelings of deprivation registers in our brain as "loss". And when we have a "loss" of something, we grieve over it. Now it is up to us to determine how long we will let that "grief" manifest itself. If we continue to fixate on the food we are "missing" then, well, absence makes the heart grow fonder, our feelings of grief and loss over not eating "XXX" will only increase, and we will experience over and over the first 4 stages of grief:
Anger
Denial
Bargaining
Depression
And thus never able to achieve the final stage of grief which is:
Resignation/Acceptance
Sure we all go through the first 4 stages on our Medifast journey. The quicker we can get through them to the resignation/acceptance phase the better. But when we fixate on "XXX" kind of food or alcohol, we risk snapping back out of resignation in to anger, denial, bargaining, or depression, or even some combination of all 4. We will cycle in and out of those, risking our programs in the process, until finally coming to terms and accepting again that we are on a journey to health that does NOT include eating "XXX" right now.
Some people don't make it back to resignation/acceptance, and end up back here in a year or two ready to try again. I'm a big fan of trying again, if you read my story you'll see why. =)
But now I feel like I have really reached the resignation/acceptance phase. And I guard it fiercely because it was hard to get here.
And I'm not going anywhere.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | We had our Bi-Annual First Things First Disneyworld Families Reunion yesterday with the Warners and their family, and it was super fun!
It was also super fun because I had so much energy and was not 268 lbs anymore like I was when we went to Disneyworld (I think I topped 275 coming back from that trip, actually!)
It was great to get to talk to my friend Brenda for awhile, and even Kurt, about my success on Medifast, and how health effects every single area of our lives. Now that I am down *almost* 100 lbs it becomes more real to me every day that I am, in fact, doing this!
I wanted to post a picture because I think they are just uber-cool people.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Take2Heart wrote a blog earlier about the fact that she had no particular "words of wisdom" (and I disagree, she had plenty from where I am sitting!) to share but had a general overwhelming feeling of warm contentment.
I think that is the wisest thing I have heard.
It made me think. Because I can relate to that kind of peace, that kind of contentment. I feel it too. Do I "feel" it every day? Every moment? Well, no I don't but it is more like the canvas onto which all other aspects of my life are being painted on. Some days the colors in my palette are bright and splashy, bold and beautiful, and the contrast is amazing. Some days, the colors being used are more subdued, run together a bit, have no clear lines, and some days the overriding color on my palette is "blue" (hence the Medi-Blues), or an inner-raging "red" (once a month LOL).
But the canvass is contentment because I KNOW so very deep within my soul that I am doing everything I possibly can to create the best version of myself possible.
If I eat off program, or have a little "extra" half and half in my coffee, it is as if my inner-brat has punched a knife through that canvass. I must repair that bit before I move on, and that takes energy and threatens my confidence in my ability to continue on the course I have chosen.
The course I have chosen is leading me to my goal.
Psalm 16:6 (NIV) says:
"The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance."
The context of this verse if speaking about sheep living in a pasture. The boundary lines are the boundary of the pasture, the line which has been man-made using a fence or naturally occurring like an outcropping of rocks which create a confining space. The sheep must stay, therefore, within the boundary of their pasture.
This verse is expressing that whomever said it (King David apparently) was content with the limitations, whether natural or man-made, that had been placed on, or existed in, his life. The lines which say "you cannot cross this".
For me this verse has incredible meaning in my life and encompasses almost every area I know of.
What are those boundary lines in my life? Well, I have two that I know of, both with the power to create resentment and bitterness if I allow them to.
First of all, in my diet. My body will always have limitations because of how it processes food. Years of obesity, years of yo-yo dieting, have taken their toll, and my body is a highly tuned efficient machine when it comes to storing fat. It will always be so. Therefore, I have learned, thanks to Medifast, what it takes for me to work WITH my body and it's limitations in order to create optimal health INSPITE of how it will always try to store fat at every opportunity. Currently, Medifast IS my boundary line. The aspects of the diet, as written by Medifast in the Quick Start Guide, ARE my hard and fast boundary lines.
I have two ways of looking at this. I can be the sheep who is always trying to get out, around, or under the fence. I can be the sheep who is looking longingly at the pasture beyond that boundary, the "grass is always greener" sheep, who resents the boundary line.
Or, I can be the content sheep. The one who is happily grazing on her Soft Serve, her MF Original Pancakes, and who is preparing her lean, leaner, and leanest options with lower carb vegetables and appropriate healthy fats, no more or no less, and making sure her condiments do not go over 3 if she uses them at all. I can spend my time and live my happy and content life within the confines of my boundary lines and be at peace. When Transition and Maintenance comes, my boundary lines will move a bit. And I will learn what new pasture I can graze on, how it effects my body, and be content with the NEW boundary lines.
What I will not do is plot and plan how I will thwart those boundary lines just this once. And again, I will not do that because I am CONTENT with my own boundary lines.
The second area of my life where I have boundary lines is in the realm of my son's health. He is our angel, our dear only child. He is 6 and had a kidney transplant 3 years ago and is doing so wonderfully now. He is our little miracle. Because of his chronic condition, there are vast limitations in our lifestyle and daily goings-on (med-schedules, water-drinking schedules, food allergies, etc) which potentially could be viewed with a level of resentment for the level of planning required, and the places we can or cannot go, and things which we can or cannot do.
But the verse rings true for me in that aspect as well, I am content with the boundary lines and where they fall, and I am happy to live my life within them. For as long as I have my son to take care of whether I outlive him or he outlives me, I cherish every moment I get to spend with him.
The bottom line is that contentment is a learned thing. It does not come easy, or naturally, or accidentally. And happy is he who has learned to be content in whatever circumstances he is in.
Philippians 4:12-13 (NIV) says:
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
I guess I'll end here because I cannot say it any better than Paul did.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | For many of us, being obese was/is a daily misery. We felt/feel awful. We felt/feel awful about ourselves, we never looked/look in a mirror, our joints hurt, our backs hurt, and we lived/live in a semi-permanent state of general disgust.
We, using the tools of Medifast, have the opportunity to change that a little bit each day.
One day during this process (atleast for me) I woke up and felt, well, in a word, HAPPY!
It came on so gradually I almost didn't notice it!
But here is where it gets dangerous, especially for me. When I feel happy with myself and happy with my body (in the past) I have let my guard down. I have often thought that because I LOOK normal, my body must BE normal.
And what I USED to fail to really understand is that my body will ALWAYS process excess calories into stored fat. Always. Without exception. I may LOOK like that skinny girl who can eat whatever she wants and not gain an ounce, but I am NOT her and never will be. (Well, skinny is a even a stretch of MY imagination right now, but you get the picture!)
I WILL NEVER BE NORMAL. And I have accepted that this is OK.
I will always need to be scrutinizing my intake. I will always need to be living with intentionality as regards my diet. ALWAYS. I can not take a vacation from my body, or how it handles excess calories.
Some days I wish I could. Then I remember that I have asked God to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. This I cannot change, but my response and my intake I CAN manage and I HAVE changed.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | So one of the benefits to losing weight (down from size 26) is shopping in "normal" clothing stores again. And since I'm a big "goal" clothing shopper, I like to have "nice" things both on my journey DOWNWARD to my goal size, and AT my goal size.
I am the queen of bargains, but I just seem to stumble into them.
For example, last night I dropped in to Ann Taylor Loft after passing the incredibly expensive Banana Republic (sorry I'm still not paying $50 on sale for a dress that was ridiculously overpriced at $158 to begin with!), and Coldwater Creek (Buy one, get next item 50% off but we'll still charge you over $100 to get out the door with two items!).
Now, although I DID get a shirt at Banana Republic for $12 last week ($59 normally) I can't complain too much about Banana. But their sale rack was pretty picked over today.
So, on to Ann Taylor Loft. I found a pair of 10P brown pin-striped trousers for $4.88. AND there was an additional 30% off the sale price, so we are talking $3.42 out the door. I bought 10P, 6P, and 2P. For $10.26 I got 3 pairs of $69 trousers.
And a pretty light pink 1/2 merino wool light cardigan/shrug for $12.00. I was feelin' pretty shop-savvy walking out of there for less than $25!
| | There is joy in my journey. It feels different this time around. The first time I lost my weight I was ecstatic, like I was unwrapping a new gift every day. This time, it is a quiet and deep sense of joy, since I know in my soul that I am changing on the outside AND on the inside.
The first 20 pounds this time around was spent restoring faith in myself. I already had faith in the plan. As I worked it, and saw the weight coming off....sometimes fast, sometimes slow, sometimes infuriatingly slow (or so I thought!), I was building a sense of trust with myself again.
Upon trust came a creeping sense of joy. At first it was so small I couldn't really put my finger on it. It was just a feeling of being "lighter" in my spirit. I smiled more. I engaged strangers more.
Now I'm full on GLOWING, people! I can't wait for opportunities to TELL people how they, too, can DO THIS THING!
Which is why I'm so active on the boards, and I carry information on Medifast around with me virtually everywhere I go. It's a life-saver. We are truly saving our lives, one decision, one little packet, one bottle of water, one Lean and Green, on DAY at a time.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Bear in mind that 95% of the people on these boards will struggle with maintaining their weight loss. I know. I was one of them. And I very well could be one of them again. I won't really know in foresight, only in hindsight. Because that is 20/20.
But, I am determined with all that is in me that I WILL be a part of the 5% club, those who maintain their weight loss.
I am not saying that to point fingers, because whenever I point a finger there are at LEAST three fingers (on my hand) pointing back at me.
Just bear it in mind if you are wondering if it is really worth it to stay on plan this week, like TOTALLY on plan.
On plan as Medifast wrote it, not on plan as you have seen it tweaked and massaged in other part of the boards and blogs.
For example, and I'm just using this as an EXAMPLE, no judgments, no 15 messages from people saying they've done it and lost...just an EXAMPLE...did you know that Laughing Cow Cheese is NOT on the Medifast Plan as written?
Nutrition Support has given information on how, if you absolutely HAD to utilize it, "here's how but we don't recommend it". I got the same answer from them when I REALLY wanted to add Avocado to my plan. They didn't recommend it, but said "here's how but we don't recommend it". Same when people want to add wine or alcohol to their plan. You get the same "here's how to minimize the damage but we don't recommend it".
Now of course we are all adults. But think of it this way,
would you agree that much of the advice you get on these boards and blogs from other Medifasters is to do as you wish, we are all adults, and if you want to work it in to your plan, then so be it? That you can always get back on afterwards? That it won't hurt your losses TOO much?
Would ya say about 95% of the advice would be that?
| | My feelings are fickle, I don't know about yours. Part of my journey has been learning to dissociate my feelings, both emotional and how my body "feels" from day to day, from what I eat.
Now, for an emotional eater, that is a tall order.
But it has been a necessary component of my weight loss journey of self-discovery.
For example, it is just about TOM. This has caused me to "feel" pretty crazy both emotionally and physically. I feel bloated. My jeans are a little snug. Now, I KNOW why this is. But the actual feeling of being bloated and having snug jeans when I don't think they should be snug causes me to "feel" like I've already blown it diet-wise, when I KNOW I have not.
When I "feel" like I've blown it, I "feel" like having whatever I want because I've already blown it so why not enjoy the rest of the day/week?
And it's not true. Firstly, it's just a lie. I haven't blown my diet. I feel bloated and big because I'm TOM. Secondly, even if I HAD gone off plan and eaten something to cause me to feel bloated that is NO cause to make poor choices for the rest of the day/week!
These are the issues I have identified and, I feel, really begun to address. The lies that my brain tells myself based on how I feel emotionally or physically. My responses to those lies is to CHALLENGE THEM WITH TRUTH, and to be at peace despite how I feel, knowing I am doing everything day by day to further my health goals.
I will not derail myself. I will not let my body call the shots. I am master over my body, not the other way around.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
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One Day, One Day, One Day at a Time!How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. How do you go from over 47 BMI to 31 BMI? One day at a time.
Yes, I am thrilled to say my BMI today is 31. Just last July 31st it was over 47. That put me in the morbidly morbidly obese category, at 268 lbs and 5 ' 3".
And my body knew it. Aches, pains, back trouble, trouble sleeping, fatigue, depression, you name it. I had no "apparent" health issues, besides the obesity that was killing me, but I was becoming insulin resistant, had a resting heart rate of OVER 90, and would come to find out I had the early symptoms of PAD (peripheral artery disease), which is in the realm of cardiovascular disease.
Medifast was the tool I used, it was the lifesaver ring that was thrown out from the boat of life. But I had to grab it. And grab it I did.
Now I have none of those health issues. I run, I ride my bike, I swim with my child at the community pool. I help others achieve their health goals and I am loving, LOVING life.
Now off to find my running shoes because I've got an appointment with the pavement!
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Being deliberate in our decisions is part of what makes Medifast work on an individual basis.
I do not adhere to the plan by accident. I don't mindlessly prepare all my meals and my lean and green and just so "happen" to find at the end of the day that I was On Plan.
My day is deliberate. I live with intentionality and purpose, and everything that goes into my mouth has to pass the test of "will this help me achieve my goals or delay my goals?"
How about you?
| | Today I am one more day closer to my goal. Today I will focus on ONLY today. One of these "today's" I will wake up at goal. It may be 6 months of "today's" or 5 months of "today's", perhaps even 7 months of "today's".
I don't know. But today I will focus on today.
| | I don't know about you, but I go crazy obsessing on things I'm fixated on. I have to be really careful about what I turn my attention to, or else my plans crumble and I'm left a little dazed and confused.
For example, I like red wine. However, I've determined that it will sit on the shelf until I am in maintenance because that is what I have committed to myself I will do. Most days I don't even glance at it. It sits as a happy reminder of the healthy lifestyle I will maintain once I hit my goal and transition.
But here is the danger. When I start thinking about red wine and imagining myself with a glass, my mind will begin to run with those thoughts. My inner-brat will sense an opening, a weakness if you will, and will attempt a mutiny.
So when I recognize that I am beginning to focus a little too much on those things I have chosen NOT to have while achieving my goals and dreams, I pull myself back, I take my thoughts captive, and I continue on my day. Insert whatever it is that you are feeling particularly deprived of these days.
The very fact that we feel "deprived" of it makes us want it more. I challenge you, and I challenge me, to turn that around and instead of feeling "deprived", realize that it is a choice we have made to abstain in order to reach OUR goals. The things WE want for ourselves, that we have decided are MORE important than the temporary and transient (and in some cases deadly because indulging is keeping us fat and unhealthy and prone to all sorts of diseases!) pleasures of eating "XXXXX".
Focusing on feelings of deprivation registers in our brain as "loss". And when we have a "loss" of something, we grieve over it. Now it is up to us to determine how long we will let that "grief" manifest itself. If we continue to fixate on the food we are "missing" then, well, absence makes the heart grow fonder, our feelings of grief and loss over not eating "XXX" will only increase, and we will experience over and over the first 4 stages of grief:
Anger
Denial
Bargaining
Depression
And thus never able to achieve the final stage of grief which is:
Resignation/Acceptance
Sure we all go through the first 4 stages on our Medifast journey. The quicker we can get through them to the resignation/acceptance phase the better. But when we fixate on "XXX" kind of food or alcohol, we risk snapping back out of resignation in to anger, denial, bargaining, or depression, or even some combination of all 4. We will cycle in and out of those, risking our programs in the process, until finally coming to terms and accepting again that we are on a journey to health that does NOT include eating "XXX" right now.
Some people don't make it back to resignation/acceptance, and end up back here in a year or two ready to try again. I'm a big fan of trying again, if you read my story you'll see why. =)
But now I feel like I have really reached the resignation/acceptance phase. And I guard it fiercely because it was hard to get here.
And I'm not going anywhere.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | We had our Bi-Annual First Things First Disneyworld Families Reunion yesterday with the Warners and their family, and it was super fun!
It was also super fun because I had so much energy and was not 268 lbs anymore like I was when we went to Disneyworld (I think I topped 275 coming back from that trip, actually!)
It was great to get to talk to my friend Brenda for awhile, and even Kurt, about my success on Medifast, and how health effects every single area of our lives. Now that I am down *almost* 100 lbs it becomes more real to me every day that I am, in fact, doing this!
I wanted to post a picture because I think they are just uber-cool people.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Take2Heart wrote a blog earlier about the fact that she had no particular "words of wisdom" (and I disagree, she had plenty from where I am sitting!) to share but had a general overwhelming feeling of warm contentment.
I think that is the wisest thing I have heard.
It made me think. Because I can relate to that kind of peace, that kind of contentment. I feel it too. Do I "feel" it every day? Every moment? Well, no I don't but it is more like the canvas onto which all other aspects of my life are being painted on. Some days the colors in my palette are bright and splashy, bold and beautiful, and the contrast is amazing. Some days, the colors being used are more subdued, run together a bit, have no clear lines, and some days the overriding color on my palette is "blue" (hence the Medi-Blues), or an inner-raging "red" (once a month LOL).
But the canvass is contentment because I KNOW so very deep within my soul that I am doing everything I possibly can to create the best version of myself possible.
If I eat off program, or have a little "extra" half and half in my coffee, it is as if my inner-brat has punched a knife through that canvass. I must repair that bit before I move on, and that takes energy and threatens my confidence in my ability to continue on the course I have chosen.
The course I have chosen is leading me to my goal.
Psalm 16:6 (NIV) says:
"The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance."
The context of this verse if speaking about sheep living in a pasture. The boundary lines are the boundary of the pasture, the line which has been man-made using a fence or naturally occurring like an outcropping of rocks which create a confining space. The sheep must stay, therefore, within the boundary of their pasture.
This verse is expressing that whomever said it (King David apparently) was content with the limitations, whether natural or man-made, that had been placed on, or existed in, his life. The lines which say "you cannot cross this".
For me this verse has incredible meaning in my life and encompasses almost every area I know of.
What are those boundary lines in my life? Well, I have two that I know of, both with the power to create resentment and bitterness if I allow them to.
First of all, in my diet. My body will always have limitations because of how it processes food. Years of obesity, years of yo-yo dieting, have taken their toll, and my body is a highly tuned efficient machine when it comes to storing fat. It will always be so. Therefore, I have learned, thanks to Medifast, what it takes for me to work WITH my body and it's limitations in order to create optimal health INSPITE of how it will always try to store fat at every opportunity. Currently, Medifast IS my boundary line. The aspects of the diet, as written by Medifast in the Quick Start Guide, ARE my hard and fast boundary lines.
I have two ways of looking at this. I can be the sheep who is always trying to get out, around, or under the fence. I can be the sheep who is looking longingly at the pasture beyond that boundary, the "grass is always greener" sheep, who resents the boundary line.
Or, I can be the content sheep. The one who is happily grazing on her Soft Serve, her MF Original Pancakes, and who is preparing her lean, leaner, and leanest options with lower carb vegetables and appropriate healthy fats, no more or no less, and making sure her condiments do not go over 3 if she uses them at all. I can spend my time and live my happy and content life within the confines of my boundary lines and be at peace. When Transition and Maintenance comes, my boundary lines will move a bit. And I will learn what new pasture I can graze on, how it effects my body, and be content with the NEW boundary lines.
What I will not do is plot and plan how I will thwart those boundary lines just this once. And again, I will not do that because I am CONTENT with my own boundary lines.
The second area of my life where I have boundary lines is in the realm of my son's health. He is our angel, our dear only child. He is 6 and had a kidney transplant 3 years ago and is doing so wonderfully now. He is our little miracle. Because of his chronic condition, there are vast limitations in our lifestyle and daily goings-on (med-schedules, water-drinking schedules, food allergies, etc) which potentially could be viewed with a level of resentment for the level of planning required, and the places we can or cannot go, and things which we can or cannot do.
But the verse rings true for me in that aspect as well, I am content with the boundary lines and where they fall, and I am happy to live my life within them. For as long as I have my son to take care of whether I outlive him or he outlives me, I cherish every moment I get to spend with him.
The bottom line is that contentment is a learned thing. It does not come easy, or naturally, or accidentally. And happy is he who has learned to be content in whatever circumstances he is in.
Philippians 4:12-13 (NIV) says:
"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
I guess I'll end here because I cannot say it any better than Paul did.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | For many of us, being obese was/is a daily misery. We felt/feel awful. We felt/feel awful about ourselves, we never looked/look in a mirror, our joints hurt, our backs hurt, and we lived/live in a semi-permanent state of general disgust.
We, using the tools of Medifast, have the opportunity to change that a little bit each day.
One day during this process (atleast for me) I woke up and felt, well, in a word, HAPPY!
It came on so gradually I almost didn't notice it!
But here is where it gets dangerous, especially for me. When I feel happy with myself and happy with my body (in the past) I have let my guard down. I have often thought that because I LOOK normal, my body must BE normal.
And what I USED to fail to really understand is that my body will ALWAYS process excess calories into stored fat. Always. Without exception. I may LOOK like that skinny girl who can eat whatever she wants and not gain an ounce, but I am NOT her and never will be. (Well, skinny is a even a stretch of MY imagination right now, but you get the picture!)
I WILL NEVER BE NORMAL. And I have accepted that this is OK.
I will always need to be scrutinizing my intake. I will always need to be living with intentionality as regards my diet. ALWAYS. I can not take a vacation from my body, or how it handles excess calories.
Some days I wish I could. Then I remember that I have asked God to grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. This I cannot change, but my response and my intake I CAN manage and I HAVE changed.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | So one of the benefits to losing weight (down from size 26) is shopping in "normal" clothing stores again. And since I'm a big "goal" clothing shopper, I like to have "nice" things both on my journey DOWNWARD to my goal size, and AT my goal size.
I am the queen of bargains, but I just seem to stumble into them.
For example, last night I dropped in to Ann Taylor Loft after passing the incredibly expensive Banana Republic (sorry I'm still not paying $50 on sale for a dress that was ridiculously overpriced at $158 to begin with!), and Coldwater Creek (Buy one, get next item 50% off but we'll still charge you over $100 to get out the door with two items!).
Now, although I DID get a shirt at Banana Republic for $12 last week ($59 normally) I can't complain too much about Banana. But their sale rack was pretty picked over today.
So, on to Ann Taylor Loft. I found a pair of 10P brown pin-striped trousers for $4.88. AND there was an additional 30% off the sale price, so we are talking $3.42 out the door. I bought 10P, 6P, and 2P. For $10.26 I got 3 pairs of $69 trousers.
And a pretty light pink 1/2 merino wool light cardigan/shrug for $12.00. I was feelin' pretty shop-savvy walking out of there for less than $25!
| | There is joy in my journey. It feels different this time around. The first time I lost my weight I was ecstatic, like I was unwrapping a new gift every day. This time, it is a quiet and deep sense of joy, since I know in my soul that I am changing on the outside AND on the inside.
The first 20 pounds this time around was spent restoring faith in myself. I already had faith in the plan. As I worked it, and saw the weight coming off....sometimes fast, sometimes slow, sometimes infuriatingly slow (or so I thought!), I was building a sense of trust with myself again.
Upon trust came a creeping sense of joy. At first it was so small I couldn't really put my finger on it. It was just a feeling of being "lighter" in my spirit. I smiled more. I engaged strangers more.
Now I'm full on GLOWING, people! I can't wait for opportunities to TELL people how they, too, can DO THIS THING!
Which is why I'm so active on the boards, and I carry information on Medifast around with me virtually everywhere I go. It's a life-saver. We are truly saving our lives, one decision, one little packet, one bottle of water, one Lean and Green, on DAY at a time.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
| | Bear in mind that 95% of the people on these boards will struggle with maintaining their weight loss. I know. I was one of them. And I very well could be one of them again. I won't really know in foresight, only in hindsight. Because that is 20/20.
But, I am determined with all that is in me that I WILL be a part of the 5% club, those who maintain their weight loss.
I am not saying that to point fingers, because whenever I point a finger there are at LEAST three fingers (on my hand) pointing back at me.
Just bear it in mind if you are wondering if it is really worth it to stay on plan this week, like TOTALLY on plan.
On plan as Medifast wrote it, not on plan as you have seen it tweaked and massaged in other part of the boards and blogs.
For example, and I'm just using this as an EXAMPLE, no judgments, no 15 messages from people saying they've done it and lost...just an EXAMPLE...did you know that Laughing Cow Cheese is NOT on the Medifast Plan as written?
Nutrition Support has given information on how, if you absolutely HAD to utilize it, "here's how but we don't recommend it". I got the same answer from them when I REALLY wanted to add Avocado to my plan. They didn't recommend it, but said "here's how but we don't recommend it". Same when people want to add wine or alcohol to their plan. You get the same "here's how to minimize the damage but we don't recommend it".
Now of course we are all adults. But think of it this way,
would you agree that much of the advice you get on these boards and blogs from other Medifasters is to do as you wish, we are all adults, and if you want to work it in to your plan, then so be it? That you can always get back on afterwards? That it won't hurt your losses TOO much?
Would ya say about 95% of the advice would be that?
|
When I Just Don't "Feel" Like ItMy feelings are fickle, I don't know about yours. Part of my journey has been learning to dissociate my feelings, both emotional and how my body "feels" from day to day, from what I eat.
Now, for an emotional eater, that is a tall order.
But it has been a necessary component of my weight loss journey of self-discovery.
For example, it is just about TOM. This has caused me to "feel" pretty crazy both emotionally and physically. I feel bloated. My jeans are a little snug. Now, I KNOW why this is. But the actual feeling of being bloated and having snug jeans when I don't think they should be snug causes me to "feel" like I've already blown it diet-wise, when I KNOW I have not.
When I "feel" like I've blown it, I "feel" like having whatever I want because I've already blown it so why not enjoy the rest of the day/week?
And it's not true. Firstly, it's just a lie. I haven't blown my diet. I feel bloated and big because I'm TOM. Secondly, even if I HAD gone off plan and eaten something to cause me to feel bloated that is NO cause to make poor choices for the rest of the day/week!
These are the issues I have identified and, I feel, really begun to address. The lies that my brain tells myself based on how I feel emotionally or physically. My responses to those lies is to CHALLENGE THEM WITH TRUTH, and to be at peace despite how I feel, knowing I am doing everything day by day to further my health goals.
I will not derail myself. I will not let my body call the shots. I am master over my body, not the other way around.
Happy Medifasting! Rinse and Repeat!
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