Today was a cathartic day. I ended
up crying my eyes out for part of it, jumping for joy for part of it,
and saying "Wha?........" for part of it.
This morning I went
to Jerome for the day. I love Jerome, Arizona. Such a fun little
town, so many memories. My husband and I used to own a Bed and
Breakfast there, so it is always a good time and good memories to head
up there if even for a few hours. I stopped in on some old friends in
the shops, I bought a KILLER pink dress at the House of Joy for my Puerto Rico trip next week (we have a Valentine Dinner of sorts on a beach on an island on our last night), and a little silver jewelled kaleidascope necklace at Nellie
Bly. I peeked in the Spirit Room and listened to the live band that
was playing, and spent about an hour journalling over a cup of espresso at the Flatiron Cafe. I went for a hike a few miles up the dirt road past the Gold Hill Mine towards Perkinsville, and it was coming back to my truck on this road that the "Wha?....." happened.
But first, the crying my eyes out.
Before I turned around to walk back down the road to my truck, I sat for awhile out there in the stillness that is Northern Arizona in February on an old non-maintained dirt road. I thought about my life, and I thought about all the blessings that I have been given, including and at most my 8 year old son who received a (successful!) kidney transplant almost 4 years ago now. Every day I give him back to God with an open hand, but I retain the fear that God will take me up on that, so you can see what a tug-of-war goes on in my soul daily.
My husband resigned his job and has been home-schooling our boy since September 1st, and we have been doing fine, but I spent some time today just asking God to keep me continue on with my goals and to "keep my on my feet" so to speak.
Sometimes you just feel like you're THIS close to being knocked out, as if in a round of boxing.
Life can just throw jabs at you, and sometimes it is all you can do to
stay on your feet. Not stumble. Not fall. I said some very heart felt
prayers today asking God to keep me on my feet. For my family. For my boy.
You see, I have lived most of my adult life as an obese woman. I have now NOT been that for over a year, as I am maintaining and even furthering my health goals, and have been for over a year now, and in my heart I KNOW this is a permanent change and a lifestyle since implementing the Habits of Health which override my Habits of Disease daily.
However, comma, I never want to take that for granted. And my husband and I have designed our lives around what matters most to us, our son. Spending time with him, Making sure he is safe. Making sure he knows he is loved and accepted and "enough" even though he has some huge medical challenges to live with for the rest of his life. We want to give him that gift. And so we are.
So I pray God continues to keep me "on my feet" and daily making the choices that I need to make to maintain my weight, my health, and my lifestyle. Yes, the tears flowed during that prayer out there in the Arizona Wilderness.
The "Wha?....."
moment cam while I was walking BACK to my truck. Up on that desolate
road I only saw one vehicle pass me. That was an old beat up Ford
truck, with three guys in cowboy hats riding in the front bench seat.
As the truck passed me, I heard a "moo" sound come from the back of the
truck, and without looking back, my brain immediately assumed that there
was someone riding in the back of the truck and they were making fun of
me. Why? Because my brain defaulted to "fat me" brain. My brain
defaulted to thinking that those men were seeing a 5'3" woman walking the back road who weighed 272 pounds and was almost as wide as she was tall. Or so she felt when she was 272. It took a full 10 seconds for my brain to rationalize that:
#1) I don't weigh that anymore, as evidenced by my running my hands down my thighs to make sure they had not, indeed, grown in circumference while I had been walking....honest I did that!
#2)
Realizing when I heard the "moo" the second time about 15 seconds later
that it was NOT a "moo" but a "baaaaa", and that they were ranchers who
had a SHEEP in the back of their truck.
Now that's funny right there.
But very poignant in that this new healthy life is still so new to me
that my brain can still play tricks on me like that. But that is still
funny. I spent the rest of the walk laughing at myself. =)
Jumping for joy came a little while later, when while walking past the Haunted Hamburger I met the owner of another Bed and Breakfast in town, who had been there when my husband and I were there way back when. She did not recognize me. I had to explain to her who I was, and we had a very good conversation in which she called me "an itty bitty thing." Now she is pretty itty bitty herself, so for HER to call ME itty bitty, well, I jumped for joy all the way down the concrete stairs back to my parking spot after talking with her for 10 minutes.
So one day, three extremes, and I feel like I have been put through the paces today. Joy. Grief. Confusion. All of it.
And not ONCE did I "feel" like answering ANY of those emotions with a big ole piece of cheesecake. Not ONCE. Not ONCE did I feel like stuffing my grief
down with a pizza. I didn't want to celebrate with Ben & Jerry's,
nor did I want to ponder at the confusion I felt over a warm plate of
brownies. Not once did I even THINK about food as a drug. In fact,
come to think of it, it has been a LONG time since I HAVE thought of food in that way.
I'm telling you what, this time is different. This time I have embraced the Habits of Health and if I can do it, anyone can. Honest. This is NOT a DIET to white-knuckle your way through and hope for the best at the end of it. We MUST
develop fit and healthy minds to go along with our fit and healthy body
or this whole thing is an exercise in futility. Please take if from
someone who knows by experience. It's NOT all about the size of your
jeans. It's NOT all about the numbers on the scale. It
IS about what you do, what you think about, when life happens. When
grief happens. When joy happens. When all of it comes at you like a freight train, and you just have to stay on your feet.
Adopting Habits of Health will allow you a chance of succeeding when that happens. I've lived that, and I stand by it.
Have a great Sunday everyone. Go Ravens.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
"I Was So Bad On My Diet" - and other myths...
We hear it all the time, don't we? We tell it to ourselves. We see others telling it to themselves. Does this sound familiar?
"I was SO GOOD on my DIET yesterday! I didn't CHEAT one BIT!"
or
"I was SO BAD on my Diet yesterday! I CHEATED with a few extra almonds."
The first one implies success and "good". The second one implies failure and "bad".
What if there was another way to look at this, a way which did not tie a moral absolute to your food choices?
Because really? Eating ON plan does NOT make you a GOOD person, no more than eating OFF plan makes you a BAD person.
I think if we could absolutely identify this and make a paradigm shift in our thinking, it would mean WORLDS of progress to our goal of attaining and maintaining optimal health!
Let me share what I have learned through the years, most of it from Dr. A, and validated in my own life through my personal experience.
For me, part of my hang-up, part of my journey (the part that saw me lose 140 pounds over 14 months and then gain it back over the next 12 months), was staying in a "diet mentality".
This mentality was highlighted by the goal of "to lose weight", and used self-shame to keep me "on track". Eating something deemed "off plan" was BAAAAAD and would bring feelings of frustration and shame, an overriding sense of failure to my day. A "good" day was staying ON PLAN 100% and garning a sense of "I'm a SUCCESS!" at the end of those days. The goal?
"To Lose Weight".
The second time I did the plan, I actually read Dr. A's Book and began to implement the Habits of Health listed therein. And I had a watershed moment.
My watershed moment was realizing that my choices to eat "on plan" or "off plan" had nothing to do with success, failure, being good or being bad. It was so freeing! I almost didn't know what to do with that information!
I realized that if I stretched out a timeline and put "Optimal Health (or, in my own words 'attaining and maintaining a healthy weight') on one end of the timeline, punctuated by Habits of Health, and I put "Where you came from" on the other end of the timeline, punctuated by Habits of Disease, that I could look at each choice in light of where it would take me on that timeline, and NOT as a moral decision of good or bad.
Ergo, eating ON PLAN was a choice I could make to MOVE TOWARDS OPTIMAL HEALTH, and eating OFF PLAN was a choice I could make to MOVE TOWARDS WHERE I CAME FROM.
Since I never want to go back to where I came from, I consistently make choices that will move me towards optimal health. Simple as that.
And the choices I make that don't take me closer to that goal? The choices that I make which don't support my primary goal of optimal health are few and far between now because I examine every eating or drinking decision in light of where it will take me on that time line.
You know what else I found? I am a perpetual teen-ager at heart. Sometimes I just LIKE being BAAAAD! A little bit rebellious, and that was evidenced in the past by "acting out" with my food choices. "Because if eating a snickers is wrong, baby I don't WANT to be right". Seems as though with all the structure and responsibilities of being an adult, a wife to an amazing man, and a mother to an amazing 8 year old boy with medical special needs, well that takes structure, organization, discipline, and responsibility and sometimes I just wanted to be a little bit irresponsible and, well BAD!
My brain would be a bonanza for someone with a psychology degree but I literally diffused the "acting out with food" by taking away all the moral associations with those choices. Literally. It was almost an overnight decision. And I felt the difference immediately.
How did I do it? How did I just all of a sudden diffuse the moral associations?
Intentionally. I DECIDED that if I chose to eat off plan, that I would NOT view myself as a BAD person. That is was NOT a moral decision, and I just told myself BEFORE eating the off-plan item "Eating this makes me neither BAD nor a failure. Eating this is a choice I make, which will either take me towards my primary goal of optimal health or farther from it. Which is it, Sista?"
And you know what? Taking that brief moment to STOP and CHALLENGE my behavior in a non-moral way, in a non-failure way, put it into perspective for me. I would REALIZE that what was about to eat would NOT in fact take me closer to my goals (the goals that I said I wanted, BTW, the goals that I chose, not any goal that was foisted upon me....), and 9 times out of 10 I would put the item down and continue my day ON PLAN.
When my goal became "to attain and maintain a healthy weight" is when I feel I made great strides at breaking free from the diet mentality (which is an oscillating pattern of lose-gain-repent-repeat) and making this a lifestyle change. And if you rolled your eyes at "lifestyle change" like I used to do, then I recommend you get a copy of Dr. A's Habits of Health and begin to thoughtfully read it (with a journal and pen nearby) because I had NO idea what a "lifestyle change" was until I saw it laid out so beautifully and understandably as in that book.
I thought "yeah, I've made a lifestyle change, dieting IS my lifestyle LOL" and I'll tell you right now, that previous diet mentality was all about deprivation and bondage to some system.
A lifestyle change, on the other hand, is all about HOPE, FREEDOM to live the life I WANT to live, and choosing Habits of Health because it is a JOY to do so.
A diet mentality is all about what I CAN'T have.
A lifestyle change is all about what I am choosing to create with this process. All the good things I am bringing in to my life as a result of my decision to get healthy.
And that's a wrap!
"I was SO GOOD on my DIET yesterday! I didn't CHEAT one BIT!"
or
"I was SO BAD on my Diet yesterday! I CHEATED with a few extra almonds."
The first one implies success and "good". The second one implies failure and "bad".
What if there was another way to look at this, a way which did not tie a moral absolute to your food choices?
Because really? Eating ON plan does NOT make you a GOOD person, no more than eating OFF plan makes you a BAD person.
I think if we could absolutely identify this and make a paradigm shift in our thinking, it would mean WORLDS of progress to our goal of attaining and maintaining optimal health!
Let me share what I have learned through the years, most of it from Dr. A, and validated in my own life through my personal experience.
For me, part of my hang-up, part of my journey (the part that saw me lose 140 pounds over 14 months and then gain it back over the next 12 months), was staying in a "diet mentality".
This mentality was highlighted by the goal of "to lose weight", and used self-shame to keep me "on track". Eating something deemed "off plan" was BAAAAAD and would bring feelings of frustration and shame, an overriding sense of failure to my day. A "good" day was staying ON PLAN 100% and garning a sense of "I'm a SUCCESS!" at the end of those days. The goal?
"To Lose Weight".
The second time I did the plan, I actually read Dr. A's Book and began to implement the Habits of Health listed therein. And I had a watershed moment.
My watershed moment was realizing that my choices to eat "on plan" or "off plan" had nothing to do with success, failure, being good or being bad. It was so freeing! I almost didn't know what to do with that information!
I realized that if I stretched out a timeline and put "Optimal Health (or, in my own words 'attaining and maintaining a healthy weight') on one end of the timeline, punctuated by Habits of Health, and I put "Where you came from" on the other end of the timeline, punctuated by Habits of Disease, that I could look at each choice in light of where it would take me on that timeline, and NOT as a moral decision of good or bad.
Ergo, eating ON PLAN was a choice I could make to MOVE TOWARDS OPTIMAL HEALTH, and eating OFF PLAN was a choice I could make to MOVE TOWARDS WHERE I CAME FROM.
Since I never want to go back to where I came from, I consistently make choices that will move me towards optimal health. Simple as that.
And the choices I make that don't take me closer to that goal? The choices that I make which don't support my primary goal of optimal health are few and far between now because I examine every eating or drinking decision in light of where it will take me on that time line.
You know what else I found? I am a perpetual teen-ager at heart. Sometimes I just LIKE being BAAAAD! A little bit rebellious, and that was evidenced in the past by "acting out" with my food choices. "Because if eating a snickers is wrong, baby I don't WANT to be right". Seems as though with all the structure and responsibilities of being an adult, a wife to an amazing man, and a mother to an amazing 8 year old boy with medical special needs, well that takes structure, organization, discipline, and responsibility and sometimes I just wanted to be a little bit irresponsible and, well BAD!
My brain would be a bonanza for someone with a psychology degree but I literally diffused the "acting out with food" by taking away all the moral associations with those choices. Literally. It was almost an overnight decision. And I felt the difference immediately.
How did I do it? How did I just all of a sudden diffuse the moral associations?
Intentionally. I DECIDED that if I chose to eat off plan, that I would NOT view myself as a BAD person. That is was NOT a moral decision, and I just told myself BEFORE eating the off-plan item "Eating this makes me neither BAD nor a failure. Eating this is a choice I make, which will either take me towards my primary goal of optimal health or farther from it. Which is it, Sista?"
And you know what? Taking that brief moment to STOP and CHALLENGE my behavior in a non-moral way, in a non-failure way, put it into perspective for me. I would REALIZE that what was about to eat would NOT in fact take me closer to my goals (the goals that I said I wanted, BTW, the goals that I chose, not any goal that was foisted upon me....), and 9 times out of 10 I would put the item down and continue my day ON PLAN.
When my goal became "to attain and maintain a healthy weight" is when I feel I made great strides at breaking free from the diet mentality (which is an oscillating pattern of lose-gain-repent-repeat) and making this a lifestyle change. And if you rolled your eyes at "lifestyle change" like I used to do, then I recommend you get a copy of Dr. A's Habits of Health and begin to thoughtfully read it (with a journal and pen nearby) because I had NO idea what a "lifestyle change" was until I saw it laid out so beautifully and understandably as in that book.
I thought "yeah, I've made a lifestyle change, dieting IS my lifestyle LOL" and I'll tell you right now, that previous diet mentality was all about deprivation and bondage to some system.
A lifestyle change, on the other hand, is all about HOPE, FREEDOM to live the life I WANT to live, and choosing Habits of Health because it is a JOY to do so.
A diet mentality is all about what I CAN'T have.
A lifestyle change is all about what I am choosing to create with this process. All the good things I am bringing in to my life as a result of my decision to get healthy.
And that's a wrap!
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
The 5&1 Plan waits for no man!!!
Something I have learned is that the Medifast 5&1 Plan is no respecter of person, position, gender, ethnicity, age or socioeconomic background.
It is also no respecter of schedules, hectic lifestyles, budgetary constraints or otherwise, feelings, capabilities, desires, earnest hopes or dreams.
Success on the Medifast 5&1 Plan comes by DOING IT.
Yes, you would think that this is not something I always have to re-learn, you would think that once this concept is learned it is a done deal.
We coaches are not exempt from life happening to us. And I have realized time and time again that unless I HAPPEN ON LIFE, life will happen UPON me.
What will give you success on this plan? Being intentional and mindful about faithfully executing the Medifast 5&1 Plan on a monthly, no weekly, no daily, no hourly, no minutely, no EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY basis.
At first it may feel like you ARE devoting every SECOND to what you are eating, when you are eating it, what you are drinking, when you are drinking it, and if you are Take Shape For Life, there is the additional how much sleep you are getting, how much stress is in your life, how much activity you are getting, and all of what comes along with tying your flag to the Lifestyle Change/Optimal Health flagpole.
But once these things become a HABIT, which sometimes feels like forever but in actuality can take as little as 21-28 days, then you will see these things mindfully and intentionally going on in the background as you live your life in the foreground.
So my advice today? MASTER the 5&1 Plan as written in the Quick Start Guide. Do Not Modify, Do Not Modify, Do Not Modify. Then rinse and repeat.
It is also no respecter of schedules, hectic lifestyles, budgetary constraints or otherwise, feelings, capabilities, desires, earnest hopes or dreams.
Success on the Medifast 5&1 Plan comes by DOING IT.
Yes, you would think that this is not something I always have to re-learn, you would think that once this concept is learned it is a done deal.
We coaches are not exempt from life happening to us. And I have realized time and time again that unless I HAPPEN ON LIFE, life will happen UPON me.
What will give you success on this plan? Being intentional and mindful about faithfully executing the Medifast 5&1 Plan on a monthly, no weekly, no daily, no hourly, no minutely, no EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY basis.
At first it may feel like you ARE devoting every SECOND to what you are eating, when you are eating it, what you are drinking, when you are drinking it, and if you are Take Shape For Life, there is the additional how much sleep you are getting, how much stress is in your life, how much activity you are getting, and all of what comes along with tying your flag to the Lifestyle Change/Optimal Health flagpole.
But once these things become a HABIT, which sometimes feels like forever but in actuality can take as little as 21-28 days, then you will see these things mindfully and intentionally going on in the background as you live your life in the foreground.
So my advice today? MASTER the 5&1 Plan as written in the Quick Start Guide. Do Not Modify, Do Not Modify, Do Not Modify. Then rinse and repeat.
Monday, January 21, 2013
As We Are Now, So Shall We BE....
As we are now, so
shall we be. This was a phrase that our College Bible School Principal
often reminded us. It was usually when we thought sleeping in was a better option than going to breakfast and the first class of the day. Or when we would play practical jokes, such as turning all of the milk in the school's massive refrigerator different colors with food coloring. Or when we procrastinated on getting a paper in.
As we are now, so shall we be. Well, I am still pretty playful and have certainly done my share of practical jokes. I still procrastinate. I still set my alarm dutifully for 5:30 am and....don't....get.....up. Just one more snooze, I think, I'll start getting up tomorrow. I'll really do this thing tomorrow.
And then I realize that tomorrow is just a BUNCH of "today beads" strung together on the necklace of life. Yep. Came up with that one all by myself. =)
Look I will level with you. Pursuing optimal health is NOT easy. But it IS simple. It is taking your "today bead" and making it count. If you repeated TODAY for the next 3 or 4 months, would you be CLOSER to your goal of optimal health or FARTHER FROM it?
Seriously? Make an honest assessment as you read this blog. What are you already planning on doing this afternoon or this evening that in your mind you may be justifying as "the last time" when you know full well that tomorrow never comes?
I don't know what world the REST of the population lives in, but in MY world there are ONLY a BUNCH of "todays". Tomorrow never EVER comes, do you notice that?
So what can you do TODAY so that ONE DAY you are "At your goal today?" Because no matter if you have 5 pounds to lose or 500, if you remain on the Medifast 5&1 Plan as written in the Quick Start Guide with the Condiments/Healthy Fat expanded list, you WILL be at goal today. Someday.
But if not? If you are winging it, or deciding that you aren't worth showing up for today in your own life, if that Sprinkles Cupcake*TM or Starbucks*TM CakePop is truly more important to you than your health, then your necklace of life may turn out to be even a bigger disappointment to you than you can imagine.
I know mine was. Having lost and gained 140 pounds my necklace of life was looking like it was broken. Every bead was in disrepair. Every bead was cracked. And so, with painstaking care, I got the support I needed, I adopted the Habits of Health incrementally over time, and repeating them every day I slowly took one cracked broken bead off one end of the necklace and strung one beautiful shiny brilliant bead of hope on the other end. Every day. One day at a time. Allowing for the passage of time, and making good decisions TODAY ONLY.
Soon enough my necklace was no longer a big disappointment to me. Soon enough I realized that TODAY MATTERS.
Today matters. YOU matter. And that little voice that may be screaming at you that one little bite won't matter is lying to you. EVERYTHING matters. This is YOUR life. And as you are NOW, so SHALL you be tomorrow.
Wishing every one of you success in your journey. =)
*No Sprinkles Cupcakes or Starbucks Cakepops were harmed in the writing of this Blog. And none WILL be today. Not on my watch. =)
As we are now, so shall we be. Well, I am still pretty playful and have certainly done my share of practical jokes. I still procrastinate. I still set my alarm dutifully for 5:30 am and....don't....get.....up. Just one more snooze, I think, I'll start getting up tomorrow. I'll really do this thing tomorrow.
And then I realize that tomorrow is just a BUNCH of "today beads" strung together on the necklace of life. Yep. Came up with that one all by myself. =)
Look I will level with you. Pursuing optimal health is NOT easy. But it IS simple. It is taking your "today bead" and making it count. If you repeated TODAY for the next 3 or 4 months, would you be CLOSER to your goal of optimal health or FARTHER FROM it?
Seriously? Make an honest assessment as you read this blog. What are you already planning on doing this afternoon or this evening that in your mind you may be justifying as "the last time" when you know full well that tomorrow never comes?
I don't know what world the REST of the population lives in, but in MY world there are ONLY a BUNCH of "todays". Tomorrow never EVER comes, do you notice that?
So what can you do TODAY so that ONE DAY you are "At your goal today?" Because no matter if you have 5 pounds to lose or 500, if you remain on the Medifast 5&1 Plan as written in the Quick Start Guide with the Condiments/Healthy Fat expanded list, you WILL be at goal today. Someday.
But if not? If you are winging it, or deciding that you aren't worth showing up for today in your own life, if that Sprinkles Cupcake*TM or Starbucks*TM CakePop is truly more important to you than your health, then your necklace of life may turn out to be even a bigger disappointment to you than you can imagine.
I know mine was. Having lost and gained 140 pounds my necklace of life was looking like it was broken. Every bead was in disrepair. Every bead was cracked. And so, with painstaking care, I got the support I needed, I adopted the Habits of Health incrementally over time, and repeating them every day I slowly took one cracked broken bead off one end of the necklace and strung one beautiful shiny brilliant bead of hope on the other end. Every day. One day at a time. Allowing for the passage of time, and making good decisions TODAY ONLY.
Soon enough my necklace was no longer a big disappointment to me. Soon enough I realized that TODAY MATTERS.
Today matters. YOU matter. And that little voice that may be screaming at you that one little bite won't matter is lying to you. EVERYTHING matters. This is YOUR life. And as you are NOW, so SHALL you be tomorrow.
Wishing every one of you success in your journey. =)
*No Sprinkles Cupcakes or Starbucks Cakepops were harmed in the writing of this Blog. And none WILL be today. Not on my watch. =)
Oriented Towards Health or Oriented Towards the Yummy Food?
This is something I have dealt with in my own journey, and
I'll tell you I am much more peaceful and content about this process of
attaining and maintaining a healthy weight NOW that I am oriented
towards health.
There seem to be two mindsets that I can adopt at the start of any day. The first mindset is what I call the "dieting" mindset, which is overshadowed by a fear of deprivation. It is a yummy-food-seeking mindset which keeps the "dieter" focused both on what he/she is depriving himself of, as well as keeping the "dieter" focused on how to make everything yummy, because unless everything is yummy I'm having a bad day. This is a very food-centric mentality, it is 100% the mentality I had the first time I did Medifast back in 06/07 when I lost 140 pounds.
The second mindset is the "oriented towards health" mindset. "What can I do today to attain and maintain a healthy weight?" If I am on the 5&1 I would grab 5 meals and set them aside. I would go to the store to make sure I had appropriate lean and green material. I would schedule in some time for a 30-minute walk or run. And then I would go about my day.
I didn't think I needed to "change my mind" about food back then. I thought I could keep my "relationship to the yummy food" in tact, that this "diet" was just temporary, that once I was "done" I could go back to eating my beloved yummiest yummies.
I was in for a rude awakening.
When I began the program again, in the summer of 08, I began the comprehensive Take Shape For Life Program. I focused on "changing my mind" about things. I focused on health instead of how to make everything the yummiest I could. I learned that indeed, people CAN change. We change by making the decision every day that we will act in accordance with our primary goal today. If our primary goal remains food-centric, and a quest for the yummies, then we will get exactly what we want. We will be tempted by the off-plan yummies, we will try to make the on-plan yummies as yummy as we can, and we will remain food-centric.
I didn't want my second journey to be a repeat of my first.
Behavior modification is absolutely KEY if we hope to make this a permanent solution.
I understand the whole argument that "if the food tastes horrible then the adherence will be lower, which will give lower success, etc etc." And I see the validity in that. But there is a difference between food being tolerable, edible, pleasant, and striving to make it the yummiest for yummy-sake.
This is not an anti-yummy blog. But this blog is begging the question "What are you focused on today? What are you wanting?"
Because we usually get what we want. And if we SAY we want something but continually act in a manner that is NOT in accordance to what we SAY we want, then truly we need to re-examine our wants.
I deprived myself of HEALTH for most of my adult life. I will do so no longer.
I WANT HEALTH.
There seem to be two mindsets that I can adopt at the start of any day. The first mindset is what I call the "dieting" mindset, which is overshadowed by a fear of deprivation. It is a yummy-food-seeking mindset which keeps the "dieter" focused both on what he/she is depriving himself of, as well as keeping the "dieter" focused on how to make everything yummy, because unless everything is yummy I'm having a bad day. This is a very food-centric mentality, it is 100% the mentality I had the first time I did Medifast back in 06/07 when I lost 140 pounds.
The second mindset is the "oriented towards health" mindset. "What can I do today to attain and maintain a healthy weight?" If I am on the 5&1 I would grab 5 meals and set them aside. I would go to the store to make sure I had appropriate lean and green material. I would schedule in some time for a 30-minute walk or run. And then I would go about my day.
I didn't think I needed to "change my mind" about food back then. I thought I could keep my "relationship to the yummy food" in tact, that this "diet" was just temporary, that once I was "done" I could go back to eating my beloved yummiest yummies.
I was in for a rude awakening.
When I began the program again, in the summer of 08, I began the comprehensive Take Shape For Life Program. I focused on "changing my mind" about things. I focused on health instead of how to make everything the yummiest I could. I learned that indeed, people CAN change. We change by making the decision every day that we will act in accordance with our primary goal today. If our primary goal remains food-centric, and a quest for the yummies, then we will get exactly what we want. We will be tempted by the off-plan yummies, we will try to make the on-plan yummies as yummy as we can, and we will remain food-centric.
I didn't want my second journey to be a repeat of my first.
Behavior modification is absolutely KEY if we hope to make this a permanent solution.
I understand the whole argument that "if the food tastes horrible then the adherence will be lower, which will give lower success, etc etc." And I see the validity in that. But there is a difference between food being tolerable, edible, pleasant, and striving to make it the yummiest for yummy-sake.
This is not an anti-yummy blog. But this blog is begging the question "What are you focused on today? What are you wanting?"
Because we usually get what we want. And if we SAY we want something but continually act in a manner that is NOT in accordance to what we SAY we want, then truly we need to re-examine our wants.
I deprived myself of HEALTH for most of my adult life. I will do so no longer.
I WANT HEALTH.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Just a lil' ole piece of fruit....
I've been thinking about
temptation, and why it seems like we can do good and be in control of
so many other areas, but the food seems to be, for many of us anyway,
the ultimate temptation that we aren't victorious over all the time.
Normally I would chalk it up to being human. Sin nature and all. But how about this for a monkey-wrench in the works.... In the Old Testament, and the Creation account, and the Fall of Man, Eve took the food that God had forbidden them to eat, and she ate it. She did not have a sin nature at the time. Yet she ate it anyway, because "it was pleasing to the eye", and of course she had been deceived by the serpent, who told her that God wanted to deprive them of it because it would open their eyes and make them wise. He managed to convince her that they would NOT die if they ate it. And we all know what happened next!
SO. It seems, my ladies, that we have an unusual and ancient pre-disposition toward eating "forbidden fruit!" It is tantalizing. It looks good. Sometimes we can't seem to muster the strength of resolve to run the other way when it beckons. It is pleasing to the eye, and then our inner voice takes over and rationalizes it as something "not so bad, won't kill us, blah blah blah...." How often do we double-talk ourselves into eating something we absolutely know is off-limits for our health and our goals, and something that may even *gulp* kill us. What Eve did is a literal example of what we face every day. Because she at the forbidden fruit from the forbidden tree, she invited a literal death on the whole human race. (Yeah, thanks, by the way.) But how often do we look at something and say "oh, it's JUST a ding-dong" or "oh, it's JUST a little ice-cream cone, how much can it hurt, REALLY?" I wonder if Eve said that about that lil' ole piece of fruit?
I think food is an issue that is doubly hard to deal with, but it does not negate God's promise that there is NO temptation that will overtake us to where He will not provide an avenue of escape. We just tend not to look real hard for that avenue of escape when it comes to food. I'm sure there were plenty of garden paths in Eden that led AWAY from that tree. But I do note that Eve didn't take ANY of them.
So next time we think "Oh it's only a lil' piece of fruit!", remember Eve! =)
Normally I would chalk it up to being human. Sin nature and all. But how about this for a monkey-wrench in the works.... In the Old Testament, and the Creation account, and the Fall of Man, Eve took the food that God had forbidden them to eat, and she ate it. She did not have a sin nature at the time. Yet she ate it anyway, because "it was pleasing to the eye", and of course she had been deceived by the serpent, who told her that God wanted to deprive them of it because it would open their eyes and make them wise. He managed to convince her that they would NOT die if they ate it. And we all know what happened next!
SO. It seems, my ladies, that we have an unusual and ancient pre-disposition toward eating "forbidden fruit!" It is tantalizing. It looks good. Sometimes we can't seem to muster the strength of resolve to run the other way when it beckons. It is pleasing to the eye, and then our inner voice takes over and rationalizes it as something "not so bad, won't kill us, blah blah blah...." How often do we double-talk ourselves into eating something we absolutely know is off-limits for our health and our goals, and something that may even *gulp* kill us. What Eve did is a literal example of what we face every day. Because she at the forbidden fruit from the forbidden tree, she invited a literal death on the whole human race. (Yeah, thanks, by the way.) But how often do we look at something and say "oh, it's JUST a ding-dong" or "oh, it's JUST a little ice-cream cone, how much can it hurt, REALLY?" I wonder if Eve said that about that lil' ole piece of fruit?
I think food is an issue that is doubly hard to deal with, but it does not negate God's promise that there is NO temptation that will overtake us to where He will not provide an avenue of escape. We just tend not to look real hard for that avenue of escape when it comes to food. I'm sure there were plenty of garden paths in Eden that led AWAY from that tree. But I do note that Eve didn't take ANY of them.
So next time we think "Oh it's only a lil' piece of fruit!", remember Eve! =)
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
There is no "Perfect" moment. Take the moment and MAKE it perfect.
There really does not exist a "perfect" moment to decide to get healthy. So take THIS moment, and MAKE it perfect by making that decision. Now. Today.
If you feel a little bit of panic at reading these words, I'm not going to say "then you aren't ready". What I AM going to say is TAKE THE MOMENT. Make it THIS ONE.
Nevermind that you have your friends' husbands' dog's birthday party to attend a week from Tuesday at 3:47 in the afternoon. THIS is the moment you need to decide.
Because if not, seriously, then when?
As you are NOW so you SHALL BE. Are you ON PLAN now? This moment? This day we call "today?"
If not, then I suggest you decide what you desire. What you want. Why you want it. If you want the yummies, you will always get the yummies. If you want health, then you will do what it takes to obtain it.
So forget what happened last night at 11:34 pm as you were foraging in the pantry seemingly throwing your hopes and dreams for health out the window. Forget that more-than-a-glance you gave the cookies in the breakroom yesterday afternoon.
Yesterday.
Doesn't.
Matter.
It is TODAY and your very NEXT decision which determines the direction you will go. So what'll it be?
If you feel a little bit of panic at reading these words, I'm not going to say "then you aren't ready". What I AM going to say is TAKE THE MOMENT. Make it THIS ONE.
Nevermind that you have your friends' husbands' dog's birthday party to attend a week from Tuesday at 3:47 in the afternoon. THIS is the moment you need to decide.
Because if not, seriously, then when?
As you are NOW so you SHALL BE. Are you ON PLAN now? This moment? This day we call "today?"
If not, then I suggest you decide what you desire. What you want. Why you want it. If you want the yummies, you will always get the yummies. If you want health, then you will do what it takes to obtain it.
So forget what happened last night at 11:34 pm as you were foraging in the pantry seemingly throwing your hopes and dreams for health out the window. Forget that more-than-a-glance you gave the cookies in the breakroom yesterday afternoon.
Yesterday.
Doesn't.
Matter.
It is TODAY and your very NEXT decision which determines the direction you will go. So what'll it be?
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